I’ve spent too much time at the school this week. It’s sort of sad, sort of. I just feel like i should have accomplished something and i haven’t. I don’t know what’s wrong with me lately and that goes along with everyoe else also. I hate the petty arguments that really mean something, constant bickering, and all around “shadyness”. I never thought i’d use that word as much as i do now. Oh well. Footloose was really good, they had so much fun up there. I wish my senior year was as fun.

Everyone went on a “no regret” frenzy but know that i think about it, it’s sort of not realistic. I can think of quite a few things i regret doing/not doing and though i don’t dwell on it, it always pops in my mind. Lots of what if’s and what not.

So i made a video for annie, lee, ben, and bridget. How could I not? They meant so much to me, i guess they still do…obviously. I don’t even care, i’ll say it. I’m not afraid to show any sort of emotion, i’m sure you know that by now. At this point i think growing up sucks. I had one of the “times of my life” in high school. I know i haven’t even been out for over a year but Junior year hold a pretty sweet place in my heart. Back track to those days, set everything normal, let us all talk again. Wait, that can’t happen. Not unless someone’s up for defying reality. I wasn’t all about making them cry more so to revive whatever feelings were buried deep down. You call it what you want. You guys are awesome, hopefully we can pick up where we left off. Maybe.

I just got back from mikes. A trip to the roof is enough to get you rolling about everything. Intellectual and whatnot. I’m just so tired right now. I’m rambling. I’ll finish tomorrow. gnite.